Here are some pictures for you!
Cary created an album on Picasa...feel free to come back and visit. We'll be adding pictures as we take them!
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| bella |
Thanks,
Char/Cary
Cary created an album on Picasa...feel free to come back and visit. We'll be adding pictures as we take them!
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| bella |
Thanks,
Char/Cary
I have all the announcements...just need to put them together. It's been hard to do stuff one handed, but Cary's been good about helping me in the evenings and weekends. They should be in the mail in about a week or so.
I can't promise to send one to everyone...but I'll do my best. It's mostly family and godparents at this point, so my apologies to her fans all across the world.
Anyways, back to being a mom. :-) I'm trying to get Cary on here so you can get his perspective on fatherhood, but the Patriots are playing right now, so you know how that goes.
Char
PS: Isabella's pictures aren't on Amaze Studio's website yet, but there are more on Facebook!: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=158448&l=3eb43&id=813605146
“Sometimes the strength of motherhood is greater than natural laws." -Barbara Kingsolver

Isabella
Meet Isabella. Special thanks to Gary at Amaze Studios for his amazing (heh) work. BTW: there are more pictures of her there...:-)
Char
I am starting to find downtimes here and there for me to take care of myself. A ten minute nap here. A few minutes to check email there. It all works out in little ways. I'm still up at night for some godawful reason, not just to feed Isabella, which is not a big deal. But I'm up because...she's in my space! Good lord. Cary and I are crashing on a double sized futon mat, and he gets his alloted space (big cause dude has big shoulders), and Isabella gets her space (and it's not that much but she does require at least a foot so she can flail about), and I get the leftover space, which often has me up against the coffee table. Nice!
Here's a conversation we had Sunday morning:
Cary:: "She slept all night?"
Me: "No, but YOU did."
I tried waking him up so he can scoot over so I don't have to spoon with the coffee table leg, but it didn't work.
Thankfully I got to hop in the shower today. I know, it sounds gross, but I have to make sure someone has her and that she's been fed so I can duck away for a good long take me away Shower. So wonderful. And then there's Cary who is stuck with Isabella and ready to hand her over to me, fresh out of the shower and just barely refreshed. Okay, so much for that.
Okay...someone's heard me typing away and now requires my assistance. BTW, the milk truck is now the milk supertanker thanks to some lactation tea. Wow.
Char
I haven't been getting a ton of sleep lately. There are good nights and some bad nights, honestly, but last night was dramafied. Up and down all night, feeding, despairing, and trying to figure out how to decode what's going on with Isabella.
Don't get me wrong, I'm enjoying my new life, and I'm honestly asking myself what the hell would I want to go back to work for...but the truth is, I need to work to support my family, and that's that. But I'd love to be able to spend more time and watch her grow and change.
I got my glider today; I heard the doorbell ring, but in my half awakened state, I attributed it to a dream and didn't realize it was really someone at our door. Cary put it together and now we're able to actually sit next to each other and watch TV. I know, that's how mundane our world is. Speaking of which, I need to get laundry...brb...
Anyways, it's been nice with my parents around. They're really helpful. I just take a deep breath and be thankful. Be thankful. Be thankful. We tried going out the other day, but that was a huge fiasco...she got antsy and started crying while we were trying to get groceries. I went to a bathroom to feed her, and Cary went to another bathroom (he didn't follow me), to wait for me, and there we were, waiting for each other at separate bathrooms. Cute. Oh and my phone didn't work. Fresh!
It's made me shy about taking her out only because I don't want her to get super fussy while we're looking like terrible parents. Anyways, back to the laundry, back to catching some Zs when I can. Check out the pictures on FB if you have the gumption to...but I'll be posting some here soon too.
Oh and those announcements?
I'm workin' on em. '
Not really.
Char
PS: Hippo feet are gone, can fit into pre-prego clothes now, and legs/feet look strangely bonier. Go figure. W00t.
I am sitting at a desk, ear half-cocked to my right listening to the television, as well as listening to see if Isabella iis going to stir after having passed her onto Cary. My arms are cramped, but that's not a bad thing, I rationalize. I have, after all, just fed her and lulled her to sleep as only a mother can, I suppose.
So much has happened over the last few days, and I wish now in retrospect that I had updated you earlier. I wanted to walk you through the harrowing few hours of labor, the moments when I didn't have a drop of drugs in my system, sure I was going to break the bed's anti-roll off arms because it hurt that bad. I wanted to tell you about how determined I was to push even though I was stuck at 9cm for the longest time. I will, but not tonight.
People have been asking me what it's like...what it's like to have her finally, how recovery has been going, and here's my response: Even though I'm sleep deprived, and at times have snapped at Cary, I can't compare this feeling with anything I've ever had before. She's amazing, she's hilarious, she has a head of hair that makes me laugh, and she's all that we ever hoped she would be. Recovery has been hard, but I can stand up normally now, I can walk without feeling like I'm going to fall over. My feet are better fit to be on hippos as opposed to humans, but that too will pass.
Luckily my folks are here to help out, and that's been amazing. There's been a steady flow of visitors, especially on the weekend, and it throws me off a bit because I like to nap here and there when she's asleep. I've been fielding phone calls and emails here and there, but I'm more likely to update facebook just because it's easier. And I can't afford to miss anything these days.
Cary has been amazing, and like I told my cousins when we brought Isabella home: don't go out and just get pregnant with any schmuck. I don't know I could have come this far without someone I trust to be by my side at my worst, when my pain was the most unbearable, when I was the most vulnerable and tested. If you can't trust someone to be with you during those times, then just don't do it. I don't know how some women do it, but they do, and I feel sorry for those that don't have a partner to walk them through the fire.
I've been passing my days watching movies, mastering the art of falling asleep while seated, and breastfeeding half asleep. That's life. I don't think I'd trade it for anything.
I do, however, miss my bed. It's been almost two weeks since I've slept in it, only because when Isabella feels like singing for her supper, we know the next door neighbors can hear us, and we kept them up the first night. We have been sleeping on a futon on the floor in our living room. Believe it or not, it works for us.
Big thanks for my friends who came over...I really appreciated the time we spent together, and to my family. Okay, well that's my update for now...I might bust out a gabcast for you just because that might be easier than finding time to sit and blog for ya.
At any rate, off to my new gig. Motherhood. Peace!
Char